Hi, This site has been operating for almost 5 years, and I’ve moved to the United States for College. The original site was hosted on a cloud server in Hong Kong, and now the new Hosting Service would be provided by Vultr at Silicon Valley. Meanwhile, I added two domains: DeemoChen.com and YizhouChen.com, both of them would be redirected to the master domain DeemOcean.com. In the near...
My Graduation Speech
My dear teachers and parents, my lovely fellow class of 2020, it’s my great honor here to speak as a student representative, and thank you for choosing to join today’s graduation ceremony. You know, it might be the last time you see most of your surroundings, your classmates, your teacher. I mean, you would not even get in touch with them anymore. Maybe in the near future, you would call them...
Where We From and Where Human Will Go
There was a big explosion, the time be created, the world was created; the particles appear, they make impacts on each other by forces, they interact with each other–then the future be determined–just like begin a game of billiard, at the moment the stick hit the first ball, then all the future is determined. If the initial factors of the universe are typed into a supercomputer, then...
Myself and Another Me
Life, should be as perfect and harmony as a sphere which has the philosophical closeness and symmetry. Naturally, I keep this obsession into science, then I found I was wrong, on both. The family condition of mine is not quite lovely, that is not very far from the “typical family problem” in many shows, and because of that I tend to absorb information more than expressing. Back to the time, the...
我的第二脑活
我第二常干的“脑活”是构建记忆宫殿,一般是我所熟悉的地方,比如我生活过6年的小学,我就如一位身着白衣的圣贤,围绕着这宫殿的建筑工程,构建着学校的每一方面,每朵可人的花瓣,桌椅的裂缝和书的封面。即使如今现实的学校早已不同,但要是某人要我画出当时学校的建筑蓝图,我可以极为精确的—画出大部分,因为实际上我并不能在脑中完成这宫殿的构建,每当建造即将完成,我的大脑就彻底地,完全地失控了,海量奇怪的又叫人不安的信息与数据化为实体冲击着我的未完成的杰作—我越是想让它们停下,他们就更为猖狂,混乱就指数式的膨胀—直到一切都毁于一旦。这是双相情感障碍中躁狂的部分。
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我是谁?我为什么是我?
这个疑问只出现在一瞬间。
对大部分有这种体验的人,有时候甚至要隔上几个月甚至几年的时间才会出现一次这样的“一瞬间”。
仿佛是灵魂出窍,质疑个体的独立性
或许就是宗教中所说的“神秘体验”的感觉吧。
那个时候我会不明白为何“我”在这个躯壳里面,为何“我”是我。
那种感觉过后,重新回到这个世界中来 又看尽周边无言呜咽
所以才会有这个疑问,而且是无法用语言来解答的疑问。
很遗憾,这几年都没有过这样的体验了,所以对那个瞬间的感受也没有办法说的明白
或许我太想登顶于这个社会吧
建站之始
想我第一次建站是什么时候呢?那应该是两三年前的某一天。我还依稀记得观看建站视频,解决困难,优化网站直至最终大功告成的喜悦。
在这之前,我所有的Blog网站有Deemoworld Deemosea, 而在这两者的基础上诞生了EkstremeClub,也就是我为Barstow建的论坛。可我发现我所享受的并非是有了平台散发想法和思考,而是在搭建平台中不断进步的喜悦,这根本地导致我对我所有的前两个Blog无心管理——也就是所谓的”爱“。
改进是不可能的,至少对我而言,在条件允许的情况下,我更愿意推倒一切重来,浪费时间了?或许吧,但我不在乎。
Deemocean, 代表了我从建站到了树己
我想我应该写的更有激情点
但这也够了
Maybe:)
关于自刎的些许问题
如果一个人自杀了,那这个世界是多了一个自杀的人,还是少了一个自杀的人?
我常说人是神奇的动物
常说人是神奇的动物,然那不过是一声微叹。
常常已经疲惫于交流
明明在理性的光辉中
明明…
总是渴望被理解 却不希望被看穿
曾深爱孤独,也向往太阳
摸着肉体 却触不及灵魂
我…